Things I Know

1. I believe in God and Jesus, and the Gospel. I have questioned many times, but have faith that Jesus is Who He says He is, and trust HIm and seek HIm daily.
2. I love my husband with a love that I never imagined impossible. I trust him, look up to him, respect him, feel love for him to the core of my being. Even when I disagree or a mad at him, the love I have for him runs deeper than I ever knew human love could.
3. I really really really like my husband. He is funny, sweet, encouraging, patient, affectionate, and humble. I could go on and on here, so I will keep the rest for myself.
4. I love my son. He is this little human full of personality, and charm. He has these blue eyes, red cheeks, pink lips, and 4 1/2 teeth that show when he smiles, and it gets me every time. He is on the move and is wild, and has stolen my heart.
5. I love my sweet, cuddly, crazy dog.
6. I love my family.
7. I question everyday whether I want to stay home of go back to work. I love both for very different reasons.
8. I have taken a bath almost every night since I was 14. It's the place I unwind and clear my head.
9. I daydream constantly due to my 9th grade social studies teacher telling us to do so so we never get bored. I am never bored.
10. I wish I had an office in my house.
11. If we could have another (2nd) home, it would be in New York City.
12. I have finally accepted that God has made me the way I am, and embrace it. On the same note, I am constantly seeking Him because I understand my need for Him and desire to be the best version of myself.
13. I love my 1 cup coffee maker even though it tastes the same as a 12 cup pot.
14. Even though I have been praised for my job as a teacher, I still feel inadequate. Same goes for parenting.
15. I think I should remove myself from Facebook but still can't bring myself to do it.
16. I feel like I have exciting stories to tell my children and grandchildren, and have always lived life to it's fullest no matter what phase of life I was in.
17. I am beginning all of these with "I" because it these are things that I have learned from living.
18. I love to drink wine from a large balloon shaped wine glass, no matter what kind, although I favor Shiraz!
19.I love cheese!
20. I let my dog lick my face, and I enjoy every second of it!
21. I want another child, but am still terrified of going through labor and delivery again.
22. I want braces.
23. I have the most wonderful friends!
24. I am intentional about many things. That encompasses faith, family, friends, and all other aspects of my life
25. Many of my frustrations are fundamental.
26. I love hanging out with Henry and doing nothing but playing and just experiencing him grow. He is captivating.
27. I have felt this at many times in my life, but I feel this is the best time of my life
27. I am so thankful for all of the experiences, and all of the people that have I have been close to at various times in my life thus far. I feel so lucky to have lived the life I have lived so far. I have truly lived.
29. I thank my parents who have always fostered my individual growth, my spiritual growth, and my life experiences. They have encouraged them, and paid for them, and I am so thankful for all they have done! Those are invaluable lessons that have been the foundation of who I am.

The Overflow

I have realized that I do not have within me the ability to act in servanthood and love to all those around me by my own power. It is out of the overflow of God's love for me that I can give to others. When I don't access on the daily basis the gift that God gives me, I fall short, and those around me suffer. I'm so thankful for the opportunities that have been presented to me this past week to open my eyes to this reality. I have worked tirelessly on my own to try and serve and love, and it has been futile because I run out of steam very early and very easily. However, when I seek God first in all things, it is amazing the energy and ability I have to serve those around me.

My First Blog

Here it is. I have talked about it, thought about it, and here I am- finally blogging. I'm late in the world of blogging, or anything in the computer world for that matter. Hopefully I'll have something interesting to say. I don't know how this is going to play out, but as in everything else I do, I find my way eventually.

Today, I am in the midst of trying to redo my family room without spending any money. I'm trying to use what I have to make this place a relaxing room to hang out in. It's tough, it's a long narrow room, with a wood bead board ceiling, and bamboo shades( this is how the room came ). We do everything in here, so it can get overwhelmed with stuff- TV, record player, computer, CD player, Ipod docking station, large sectional couch, baby swing, cradle, dog crate, coffee table.... yikes!!! So, my task for the day was to remove the curtains because I thought they "weighed down" the room. I was looking through my House Beautiful magazine, and saw a room similar to ours, without curtains, so I decided to remove them... It already feels better in here. Next, is painting. I am going to paint the room a light silvery blue. I bought 5 gallons of this paint last year for another part of the house, but then changed my mind. This morning I tested the paint in here, and it works perfectly. I'll keep you guys updated... whoever " you guys" are that read this. This is our first home, and I never realized how much goes into making a house a home. I want this place to feel like a big hug, that you can go limp in.